Just Can't

I can’t ever tell you,
What i am going through,

Its always something else in place of the truth.

Its no more the same,

I am no more close to you,

I feel i am away ‘cause,

I can’t ever tell you.

I want to pour my heart out,

Tell you all i think and how much i suffer,

But only silence greets when i try to open my mouth.

My brain stops my heart,

Practicality takes over emotions ,

When i try to express.

After  i come out of the confusion,

You are nowhere to be seen,

I ask myself,

Did i ever love you or was it just a illusion?

Lost in that,

I always assume you were my imagination,

the perfection of my purest desires..............

And then again i ask,

Do you really exist?

Or was it just another dream!