The tears

The tears in my eyes,
worsen every minute,
in this dark hour,
restless and loneliness,
pierce my heart.

The remains,
of this weak heart,
only have hope,
patience is all it possesses.

The tears run down again,
reality is always hard,
it breaks what we have today,
can't mould like a clay.

My pain is unbound,
face flushed & tired,
the dark remains,
the unknown corners,
this lonely night,
and my broken heart,
makes a bitter sweet symphony.

....Distance....

When the volume is less,

I can listen to the tune very clearly.

When a person is away from me,

I can understand him properly.

When the volume is high,

I find it too loud.

When a person is near,

I find his presence irritating.

The words speak nothing,

But the silence of distance ,

Creates a loving feeling,

And the pain of love is sweeter than words.

But when the distance of loneliness stucks in,

I finally know  that my heart beats for him. 

Life in a nutshell

Darkness of your soul,

Opens many doors,

From the many to the nothing,

The silence of the graveyard,

Tears your senses apart,

Living in the dead i call.

Love of your angel,

Finally in some beigel,

Coming around your own will,

When you know the fun is no more,

Life in a nutshell,

Comes around when you know you are limited.

Explore i say,

 come around open the doors,

hold your breath,

there is someone,

waiting down for you,

don’t limit yourself.

I live in the shadows,

I don’t enjoy that,

Kinda feels secure,

But i always wonder,

Why this life in a nutshell?

My heart says, explore...explore...

Explore this life in a nutshell.

Reflections

Reflections of the past,

Hovering over me,

A small girl playing in the field,

Hands in soil red and brown,

I think of those days, but with a frown.

The water falling on the roofs,

Empty, wet house of silence,

A beauty in itself carrying along,

The pitter patter of the drops,

Melting my heart.

They eyes of benevolence,

The courage of the century,

The portrait on the wall,

Signifying great leadership.

Mulling thoughts over a large cup of coffee,

Lurking eyes in that pond of life,

Falling enough with those light blue eyes,

Its only when I think about your life,

Leaves falling, wet and green,

Dark are those corners,

Of this huge haveli.

Sometimes are those reflections,

Of the youth and childhood,

Some are the reflections of great pain and desire,

Some are the reflections of that zeal,

Some are the reflections of the lonely old days.

I confuse those reflections with something that I know,

But then I found out,

It’s only this piece of beauty that remains,

And it’s these reflections...

Love till eternity..

Believe me if all those endearing young charms,
Which I gaze on so fondly today,


Were to change by tomorrow and fleet in my arms,
Like fairy gifts fading away!


Thou wouldst still be adored, as this moment thou art,
Let thy loveliness fade as it will
And around the dear ruin each wish of my heart
Would entwine itself verdantly still.


It is not while beauty and youth are thine own,
And thy cheeks unprofaned by a tear,
That the fervor and faith of a soul may be known,
To which time will but make thee more dear!


Oh the heart that has truly loved never forgets,
But as truly loves on to the close,
As the sunflower turns to her god when he sets
The same look which she turned when he rose!


Found this poem while surfing... just loved it

As we walk :)

As we walk down the path,

Heading hand in hand to the woods,

Chirping birds and singing koels,

Flowers and fruits swarming like bees,

And the animals watching hidden behind piles of leaves.

The tall mountains standing,

Ornamented with thick snow,

Wild flowers crying silently,

As I step on them,

Pleading for mercy,

An insect bite reddens my cheek,

I turn to you with anger,

You smile to the insect,

 And point out the frail being under my boots.

I feel ashamed as I turn to see,

Only to find a wild one dead,

While pleading for mercy,

In her own home,

I came to taste a view of the spectacular forest,

But oh! What did I do?

I still try to argue,

You seem sad,

And you pull my hand as we run.

I huff and sniff as we run through shady trees,

But have no nerve to question you,

I can’t keep up with you,

But you pull me around,

Exhaustion causes me to shout,

While we reach the end of tall trees,

And a small pond comes in view.

All animals, big and small,

Gathered together,

Respecting each other,

Drinking water,

I try to comprehend my feelings,

To feel more guilty,

And a lesson so precious I learn,

Into the wild,

As you and I walk....

Miles away....

I feel  far away,

Miles from my own self,

Less than an ounce,

For some free time to ponder,

To look to the light,

And see great might,

In what seemed dull & slight.

My day’s heavily filled,

With every emotion,

Of love and sorrow,

Ever so graceful,

And ever so sinful,

I look to the beauty,

Surrounding me,

Taking me miles away.

Love as much you may,

Cry your heart out,

To find out the only truth,

Only to find yourself,

Miles away....


Its very ambiguous about my feelings to feel this way... Its the same... happens every day, sometimes I am here the rest in my world.

Straight from my heart!

I find it hard to express my feelings, sometimes I think its just not worth it, with the many arguments I have with myself, I die every second of my existence and that still captures my fantasy to having a rosy life. I argue again, is it wrong to dream?....... A dream wherein you dream about the impossible, and still you want it.... Huh! 

I  choose to love you in Silence…                    

For in silence I receive no rejection

I choose to love you in Loneliness…

For in loneliness no one owns you but I.

 I choose to love you from a Distance…

For distance will shield us from pain.

I chose to imprison you in my thoughts…

cause in my thoughts, freedom is for me to decide.

I choose to hold you in my Dreams…

For in my dreams, you have no end.

 That is what you are to me.

In all honesty, I find it hard to believe, 

that I will ever love somebody, the same way I loved you.’

Note: These words are not mine..... But still they are straight from my heart! I got these words from Deepika's blog

My target!

Looking  far to the mountains,

I want to climb upon,

My heart  leaps on the thought,

Considering all the dangers,

My hands fidget like springs,

Eyes mark those delicate features,

The very line of my sight,

Tells me story.

Of men in green,

Fighting for something,

Best known to them,

As for the benefit of their nation,

I see blood and sacrifice,

Absolute dedication,

And love for the unknown.

Eyes never leave that peak,

The highest one,

I dream and admire most,

Like many things in life,

I dream about,

But yet unlike all,

The desire is profound.

To achieve the greatest,

And leave the average,

Only to discover a behest,

Of the unknown,

To live in peace,

And  find a solitude,

In pondering about the worst,

Which tells a story in the least.

Thinking as I stand,

Wonder how much as I may,

Think about the men in green,

Recollect all the stories as I am,

I get to know just one thing,

My desire is the greatest,

To behold,

If they did,

Then I will,

Marching I am,

To achieve the biggest,

Of my only life

  My target! 

A new day

Eyes fight back sleep,

Fret over the mild pandemonium,

To the distant sound of the usual chatter,

Of markets selling fresh veggies,

Vendors shouting to attract customers,

A feast of sweets, chocolates and love,

Of granny  calling small kids over,

To taste the freshly baked muffins & cookies.

The sun already rose,

Behind  far hill,

In the different hues of yellow,

To mark the beginning of a new morning mellow ,

Dew drops on leaves flicker ,                                  

Flowers on the hill top dance,

Fresh fruits wait to be plucked,

On this brand new morning.

Come out of dreams,

A voice shouts,

Fluttering open my eyes,

I stretch on the bed,

Look  out to the far hill,

Greet my friend sun,

With  a promise of a beautiful fun,

And a Smile that can fill,

The void of this morning,

Marking the new beginning........

Nostalgia

Come to the world my friend,
See how beautiful it is,
I would love to see you smile,
But promise me you will never die.

I have changed,
And so have you,
Nostalgia takes me on this journey,
A wonderful one,
To remember all this life.

I wait to see you smile,
Have that twinkle in your eye,
When smile reaches your eyes,
I know I won..

In this world so cruel,
Having fought for everything,
Under the sun,
I just wish now a good life for you...

Nostalgia,
        Nostalgia,
 Bring her back to this world,
I miss you,
              I miss you,
Please let dreams come true!

The smile

When I see around,

Find a million reasons to smile,

But why is it that I still find that one reason,

The only one that makes me sad,

I was never like this,

Happiness was my core part,

But as I grew up I found it hard,

Even harder when I am now so excited,

So much to look forward to.

Heart wrenched in these deep confines,

Of solitary love,

And still finding it hard,

To love & let go,

Confusing it is,

And upsetting too,

I hold my tears back,

Make myself strong,

Beacuse I have to bid goodbye,

With a smiling face.

Hard it is but determined I am,

Life is a journey,

In which I am looking for my world,

Full of lovely dreams,

To come and tickle me,

Till I don’t flash my smile,

Which makes so many others smile....

The flight

Wings of imagination,
Make my thoughts fly,

In this rare trance that I get,

Can make you all try,

 But what I mean to say,

Is not always so sly.

My thoughts fly,

And I can see a ant,

As big as me sitting beside me,

And my thoughts again fly,

When I see a dog as big as a elephant,

Running towards me.

My thoughts again fly,

When I am in love with a alien,

Half its size that I am,

But still we marry,

The thoughts keep flying,

And I travel in a interplanetary ship,

With my alien.

My thoughts just keep on flying,

Its sometimes difficult,

To understand whats real and imagined,

I seem to be a psychotic,

Oh what a imagination,

Once again!

There’s no end,

My thoughts just fly,

And take me on a unusual flight,

Once in a while.

Don’t you dare think,

I have gone insane,

Beacuse these are my wings,

I fly and not you,

Think about it,

One day you’ll fly too,

Fly with me!

"Happy Independence day to all"

Breaking Dawn

Oh how I hope things should change,

I wonder why they don’t,

When it comes to matters of the heart,

I become irrationally stupid,

Something that I feel,

I can’t express exactly,

That surely means I need to learn,

Something more about this change.

When I first met him,

Everything seemed magical,

Trees dancing to my tunes,

And me dancing to theirs,

The music of rain drops,

And of my heart,

Together it produced,

 A mild pandemonium.

Love is like a big confusion,

It tears your senses apart,

Holds your brain and sanity for ransom,

And proves you a lovelorn.

Then comes a day,

When you are back to the real world,

You understand the difference,

Between love and lust,

And still you are confused,

In the dark, awaiting winds of change,

To see that flash of lightening,

So that you come out the trance,

The thing that is holding you down,

For you can’t recognise,

The breaking dawn.

Lost in bliss

Lounging on my sofa,

Feeling better than ever before,

I see out of the window,

And think about life.

Soon it is going to be something else,

Which I never even imagined,

I feel happy once and then sad the next,

A mixture of mixed emotions,

In the deep colours of world,

I feel the unfelt,

And I hear the unsaid.

I sometimes wander through the dark meadows,

I wonder about the recent developments,

And I see outside to the world to sort out,

To get a hint from nature,

To understand the omens,

Oh! Where am I heading?

I may come out with flying colours,

But this feeling of being lost,

This trying time of deciding,

I want to live every moment of it,

To understand the world,

And its strong foundation.

Listening to the strong winds,

Mooing the windows,

I feel like a free bird,

At last on the crossroads,

Happy like never before,

And the girth of a new life,

I wait for a new beginning,

Of life in which I seem to be lost,

Yes I am lost!!!! Lost in this bliss J

Soul

We are indebted,

To our creator,

He is the one who decides,

About life and death.

When our life is through,

Our souls become free,

But only the trace of our tragic end remains,

Hurting the many others who see it.

Free spirited that we are,

Mortality is only till our body is,

Transcend the idea of body,

And we become immortal.

Our creator gives us life,

To live to die,

To love and to part,

No matter how the end is.

I feel touched by the love,

And Warmth I feel,

Towards my folks,

That includes my creator and other  travellers like me,

One day my end will come,

And I’ll die,

But my love remains.

My love is towards everything that concerns,

And  overwhelm me,

I am immortal for my love is pure,

And this soul is my first love.

“FOREVER I SEE,

FOREVER I LOVE

AND FOREVER I REMAIN,

IN THE HEART OF ME!”

WEDNESDAY

Umm, There comes a Wednesday,

Another one yet again,

To bring all those wounds back,

To make me face the facts.

There was one Wednesday,

When i saw a mask,

A luring one,

Then came a Wednesday,

To uncover the naked face.

Now i hate Wednesdays,

And i don’t know why,

Something just isn’t right,

And i really can’t figure out why.

There comes a Wednesday,

Every week to make me stray,

The one which signifies my mistake,

And makes me aware of my haze.

Then i ask myself,

Should i blame it on him?

Is it right to hate him?

And  i realise its yet another Wednesday,

Which may come and go,

And i’ll be left to search the unknown.